"These aren't even that good. I think I could do better." That's one of the reasons I started writing. Because I was reading other articles and that thought came to mind. I've even thought that about books. Famous books. Brilliant books.

“這些都不夠好，我覺著自己能做得更好。”這就是我開始寫作的原因之一，因為我在讀別人的文章時就有了這個想法。我甚至有過書里的想法，包括名著典和經(jīng)典作品。
 
Who the fuck am I to think that?
我是誰呀？怎么有資格那么想？
That's my ego.
這就是我的自我價值感。
And I'm grateful for it.
我很欣賞這種自我價值感。
 
Because I never would've started writing without it. I never would've found something I love to do without it. I never would've been able to quit my 9-5 without it.
因為如果不是因為我的自我價值感，我就不會開始寫作，也永遠不會找到我所愛的東西，也不會放棄重復乏味的生活。
But...
但是……
Sometimes I get too caught up in it. I'll let other people's accomplishments get inside me and make me feel bad. I become jealous. I become resentful.
有時候我會陷入其中，我總是想著別人的成就，對自己產(chǎn)生不滿，我開始感到嫉妒和怨恨。
I let myself be tricked into think I'm not good enough, or doing enough, or being enough. That's when my ego becomes unhelpful.
我開始想：我不夠好，或者我做的不夠，或者我沒有足夠的。就在那時，我的自我價值感開始變得無用了。
I don't think having an ego is good or bad.
我覺著自我價值感既不是好事也不是壞事。
I think it's good and bad.
我認為它其實好壞兼?zhèn)洹?br />